First Impressions

First impressions are important, but at the same time they are deceiving.  You never know who someone is until something goes wrong.  I tend to believe that everything is my fault, but its not.  When someone wants to leave, he will leave sometimes without notification.  This is hard and for me embarrassing at the same time.  I am alone again, but was I ever really with someone.  I am so desperate to have someone I can lean on that I will accept anyone.  My friend told me that I need to starve my loneliness like if it was alcoholism.  But I've always been alone, I think this is the first time I want to bevwith someone and allow myself to have a deep connection with someone.  I don't know...

This year has been so hard and I'm looking forward to another one.