HAPPY NEW YEAR YA'LL!!!

I hope your 2010 is better than your 2009. Its about 5 hours until midnight here and so I'm going to say it now. I might be asleep by midnight. :~P I might be 24 but I feel like I'm 85. I am going to work on feeling like I'm 4o by the end of 2010. ;~P

Have fun and be safe loves!! Besos.

Thank God for Common Sense

So I talked to the person and the person will remain in my life. It went a lot easier than I thought it would but that might be because I had to stay up to 4:30 in the morning to talk to this person basically making me extremely exhausted. I don't know if we'll last forever, but I won't give up easily. This person and I have been to hell and back a couple of times and even though we are at low point for circumstances out of our control that does not mean we have to just give up.

Maybe I have said to much but I feel like it needed to be said.

Love is Blind....

...well, that just sucks. I haven't really written anything personal on here in a while. Life got to full or I was just not ready to face life. I started therapy and it feels good to go. It gives me a positive high for a couple of days and then I become depressed again. My mom says that after a while of going that that high will last longer and longer. I just wish it would come already. (Can you tell I'm an impatient person?) Ok pues things are not going too good at home right now. This year I have been starting to get ride of the people that cause me unnecessary drama and unhappiness in my life, little did I know who I might have to cut. Nothing is for sure. However, things don't look good. Four years done and gone. It breaks my heart just to think that this person won't be in my life anymore. Yet, I can't stand for this cruelty or whatever this person's excuse for it may be.

I feel so weak and tired, but for some reason I have strength for this. I just hope I don't have to stay up all night for this conversation. Inshallah whether we keep things the same or break things off - it will be positive and healthy for the both of us.

New Song Obsession

Fallen off the Prayer Wagon

I know this is bad to admit, but maybe if I admit it I'll get back to where I was. Since I was sick, which was the week after Thanksgiving, I have not been able to pray 5 times a day consistently. I don't know what is wrong with me. I feel that I have lost my connection with God. I was slowly trying to readjust my life back to prayer, but I have fallen off the wagon, again. Pray for me.

My mind is all over the place and so are my moods. Make du'a for me that I return to prayer and that it is not just an exercise but actual connection to God.

I'm a mess and I'll leave it at that.